Monday, October 11, 2010

letting go is so painful :')

i tend to express feelings to someone i truly adore when i am full with happy hormones up to my ear.

mcm masa sms call aku tgh2 malam sehari before dia masuk matrik, and aku sgt happy sbb crush aku akhirnya call aku, so aku selamba je blurted out this:
"weh, aku nak buat confession nh. snanye aku dah suka kau dr form 3."
dia:
"oh yeke? hmm menarik. kau suka aku sbb apa?"
aku:
"sbb kau pendiam."
dia:
"... sbenarnya aku pun mcm dah jatuh hati dekat kau." :')


and mcm masa abang kesygn aku tu teman aku message malam2 - aku ingat lagi, hari 1st second sem aku baru masuk rumah sewa nh and aku tak dpt tidur. aku sgt grateful and happy sbb dia teman sampaila aku tiba-tiba tercakap
"abg kau tau tak, aku snanye penah suka kau time form 2 dulu :)".
dia:
"...hahaha. tak sia-sia aku masuk kelas kau and kacau2 kau org dulu." :')


haih. i miss you guys. i miss the memories, where we were more than friends. i don't care if we will never end up as lovers, i just hope you guys never forget me as one of your close friends. i wonder if all the person whom i confessed to will end up stop contacting me. if that's how it's gonna be, i rather keep my feelings deep down inside than losing you.

sumpah rindu. :')

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