the unforgotten tale.

once upon a time, there was this happy girl. she liked to laugh, and although she was a little bit shy, she loved to say nice things to people because it made her really happy.

then one day, she and her friend ran and ran, because it was raining. they managed to find shelter under the roof of a bus stand. then only the girl realized that there was someone who was not taking shelter.

it was a boy, and he looked lonely and pitiful. he sat alone on the ground, under the rain. she was so shy to talk to him, but she tried her best and asked, "hello there, why don't you sit with us?" and she smiled sincerely. the boy quickly shook his head and looked at other way.

the next day, the girl smiled again at the boy, which he replied reluctantly. they became friends, or so she thought.

once, she smiled at him and called out his name. he did not hear it, or pretended not to hear.

once, she asked why did he look so gloomy. he shook his head and walked off.

once, she offered him a candy. he threw a ball of socks at her face.

once, she shared her food with him. he ate his while looking away from her.

once, she kept him company when he was alone. he left her while she was scared of being alone at night.

once, she made jokes. he slapped her shoulder hard.

once, she sat there quietly. he came and swore at her.

the girl cried so much, but she did not want the boy to know. so she kept smiling at him and kept treating him nicely. she knew he did not meant to do what he had done. she knew he was alone. yet small questions kept coming to her, as to why was she treated ever so lowly?

*i'm sorry, i cannot think of an ending for this story. :')

LOLcat

go google it up. hehe.

so, i'm now updating this at the library, while accompanying Sir Faiz Fadzil printing Elia's work. this is gonna be a rambling, so bare with me yup. :D

yesterday, we spent our night at KFC seksyen 2 finishing this sucker of a lesson plan. thank God today the class starts at two. so after me and my boyfie and Faiz finished our work, we kinda hung out in front of the 7E, and i saw this cat. i went meow meow at it and it came. they said that it was hungry, so i went to 7E and bought a packet of Friskies.

when i went out, i went meow meow at the said cat while shaking the Friskies packet. and then suddenly came a-runnin' several other cats which i hadn't seen before. they went all giddy and such, so i poured the Friskies on the pavement and they ate.

the cat from before didn't wanna share, it seemed, and it started clawing at other cats which tried to get close to 'its food'. i patted its head a bit roughly and it was shocked and went eating the Friskies quietly.

another cat tried to do the same, which was clawing at another cat that wanna share, so i did the same to it. this time, the cat went sulky and sat at the corner, watching its other friends ate.

then i started to understand, so i poured a portion of the Friskies here and there so that they all got their equal share. then me and Faiz went home.

you cannot imagine how happy i was for i was able to feed the cats. next time i'll buy more Friskies! it's only RM1.60 per packet anyway. :)

i lurveeee cats!

7 reasons why my papa is the coolest.

1. he knows the answer to every questions.

kalau aku recall balik, dari aku kecik sampailah ke besar, aku memang suuuuuuka sangat tanya soalan kat bapak aku. dari soalan yg paling bodoh sampailah ke soalan yg paling rumit tahap PhD. tapi takdelah nak tanya soalan kalkulus tiba-tiba, mau kena terajang nanti. tapi kalau kau tanya anything about life, politics, current issues, even about those cars on the road, dia boleh jawab semua. hari tu aku saja je tanya "pa, kat internet kata insurans kenderaan naik 150%. tak boleh ke kita tak bayar insurans pa?" lepastu dia terus explain pasal pros and cons insurans tu sekali dgn reasons kenapa kerajaan buat macam tu. but let me assure you, reasons dia penuh dgn benda2 negatif je. haha. pernah aku nak tolong ungku beli tayar, call bapak aku je terus dpt harga utk semua jenis tayar siap dgn ketebalan dia semua. antara soalan lain termasuklah "papa, earthquake kat Jepun tu apa update terkini?" or "papa, kereta apa tu? berapa cc dia?" or "papa, kenapa tak elok pakai superbike?" or "papa, ni pokok apa?" or "papa, cemana nak masak asam pedas daging?" 

semua. dia. tahu. 

2. he always knows what to do.

pernahlah kitorang otw ke Pahang sbb nak pergi kenduri kawen pakcik aku. kat tengah2 highway tayar meletup kena paku. papa buat2 kerja, setengah jam dah siap pasang tayar baru. pernah suis kipas termasuk ke dalam dinding sbb entah tangan dajal mane entah cucuk suis tu bukan main dalam lagi. aku bagitau papa, 2 hari lepastu aku tengok suis tu dah ok. masak? menjahit? semua papa aku tau. kereta mama eksiden? papa aku repair, 2 hari dah siap. kereta kakak sedara aku, dia yg tolong cek dan bagitau apa yg patut dibuat. selalunya kalau aku stuck in a hard situation, 50% kerisauan aku akan hilang lepas aku bagitau papa aku. :)

3. he never gets tired in answering your questions.

kau org ingat tak iklan raya petronas satu ketika dulu? yang burung apa burung murai tu. bila aku tengok, aku pun mcm annoyed kalau org tanya soalan sama banyak2 kali. so aku try la kat bapak aku. everytime kitorg lalu roundabout kat shah alam tu, soalan lazim aku mesti "papa, kalau turun bawah ni pegi federal highway kan?" aku akan tanya setiap kali lalu situ. dan setiap kali tulah dia akan jawab in full - lalu bawah pergi Klang, lalu pukul 3 pergi KL and so on. so aku mcm tak puas hati kenapa bapak aku tak pernah penat jawab soalan yg sama. huhu.

4. his advices are always true.

pernah aku pakai gelang kristal aku pegi kelas masa asasi dulu. papa cakap jangan pakai, bahaya. dua hari lepas tu gelang tu tercicir, hilang. menangis tak hingat aku masa tu. tapi menyesal jugak sbb tak dengar cakap papa. lepastu apa-apa yg aku buat, mesti aku refer kat papa dulu. kalau tak kompem rasa tak sedap je nak buat. tapi takdelah semua benda aku refer, just benda2 besar je contohnya kalau nak beli laptop or kereta. kalau dia kata okay, okay la. :)

5. kalau kau mintak duit, 99.8% chances are he'll give it to you.

aku nak tolong member aku, dia memerlukan duit. so aku msg la mama sbb rm500 aku ada kat dia. lepastu papa aku terus call, tanya "nak berapa duit?" aku cakap rm100. dia tanya nak buat apa, aku cakap deposit. aku tak cakap pun deposit apa. dia terus datang sini bagi kat tangan aku. malam tu dia bank in lagi rm400 sebab dia tengok aku tinggal lagi rm40. menangis kot aku. terharu sangat. yg lg 0.2% tu bila dia tinggal rm1 je dalam wallet dia. 

6. you can always hold on to his words.

kalau dia cakap nak bawak pegi pc fair, dia akan bawak jugak walaupun dia sakit kaki dan penat. kalau dia cakap nak pegi rumah atuk, dia akan bawak jugak walaupun dah tengah malam. kalau dia cakap nak masukkan duit hari selasa, hari selasa tulah dia masukkan duit. sebab tu bila dia pinjam duit dari atuk aku dgn jumlah yg sgt banyak nak buat rumah, atuk aku boleh bagi. dan sebab tu jugaklah aku tak suka kalau ada org cakap nak buat something lepastu tak buat, a.k.a cakap macam keling.

7. and lastly, he is the best.

need i say more? anak mana yg tak pikir bapak dia mcm tu kan? :)

lampu ni dia pasang sorang-sorang. hihi

*ya, aku memang rapat lagi dgn papa aku compared to mama. tapi it actually balances each other. haritu mama mesej aku, dia cakap dia dapat dean's list jugak. so aku dah decide nak bagi dia something. ;)

**semalam mimpi beli myvi. siotnyaaaaaaa, kalau dah termasuk2 mimpi tu dah kira parahlah tu. :D

for backstabbers and two-faced people

All that bullshit's for the birds 

You ain't nothin' but a vulture 

Always hopin' for the worst 

Waitin' for me to fuck up 

You'll regret the day when I find another girl, yeah 

Who knows just what I need, she knows just what I mean 

When I tell her keep it drama free 

Ohohohohohohohoh... x2 Chuckin' up them (Deuces) 

I told you that I'm leavin' (Deuces) 

I know you mad but so what? 

I wish you best of luck 

And now I'm finnin' to throw them deuces up 

[Chris Brown - Chorus] 

I'm on some new shit 

I'm chuckin' my deuces up to her 

I'm movin' on to somethin' better, better, better 

No more tryin' to make it work 

You made me wanna say (say) bye-bye say bye-bye say bye-bye to her deuces[x2] 

Uh, used to be valentines 

Together all the time 

Thought it was true love, but you know women lie 

It's like I sent my love with a text two times 

Call 'cause I care but I ain't get no reply 

Tryna see eye to eye but it's like we both blind 

Fuck it let's hit the club, I rarely sip but pour me some 

'Cause when it's all said and done 

I ain't gon' be the one that she can always run to 

I hate liars, fuck love I'm tired of tryin' 

My heart big but it beat quiet 

I don't never feel like we vibin' 

'Cause every time we alone it's a awkward silence 

So leave your keys on the kitchen counter 

And gimme back that ruby ring with the big diamond 

Shit is over, what'chu trippin' fo'? 

I don't wanna have to let you go 

But baby I think it's better if I let you know 

Look, my shorty always on some bullshit like Chicago 

So I flip that middle finger and the index finger follow 

Deuces, we ain't got no future in tomorrow 

I'm a dick, so it shouldn't be that hard to swallow 

The other chick I'm wit' never complain 

She make wanna leave the one I'm wit' Usher Raymond 

Probably didn't register, don't trip, later on it will 

Shorty fulla 'drama' like Gangsta Grizillz 

I finally noticed it, it finally hit me 

Like Tina did Ike in the limo, it finally hit me 

I got a new chick, and she ain't you 

She Paula Patton 'thicke', she give me deja vu 

And all that attitude, I don't care 'bout it 

But all that shit I do for her, you gon' hear 'bout it 

Breezy rep two up, two down 

But I'm just puttin' two up, chuckin' up the deuce now 

[Chorus] 

I'm on some new shit 

I'm chuckin' my deuces up to her 

I'm movin' on to somethin' better, better, better 

No more tryin' to make it work 

You made me wanna say (say) bye-bye say bye-bye say bye-bye to her

MENTAL NOTE

deuces: When you flip that middle finger, and that index finger follows. Giving the "peace out" when you're done with a person...physically, mentally or spiritually.

e.g. My girl always be on some B.S. so I had to give her the deuces.

puas hati?

hari ni aku agak stress. mungkin ayat ini akan kedengaran pelik pada kebanyakan org. 

1) aku tak suka expectations.

2) aku tak suka member nak tegur perli-perli.

3) aku tak suka org perlekehkan aku.

aku malas nak elaborate sbb nanti kau org boleh nampak aku nak tuju benda ni kat siapa. hmmm. 

*i need a rest.

cara menegur kawan.

ini adalah entry emosi sebelum tidur.

apa definisi kawan bagi anda? kompem lain-lain kan? dalam hidup aku ni ada beberapa kali jugaklah aku ada krisis dengan kawan. dari semua tu, aku dapat draw satu kesimpulan: do not stick with a same friend for too long. kenapa macam tu? sebab bila kau terlalu lama dgn dia, pegi kelas sama, rumah sama, makan sama, lepak sama hari-hari selama 2, 3 semester, kau akan mula terasa hostile. yalah, bila dah lepak lama-lama, kita mesti makin nampak keburukan dia. dan walaupun keburukan dia tu satu benda kecik, kalau kita tengok hari-hari pun mesti boleh rasa menyampah.

yang membawa kita straight ke point pertama. bila kita dah rasa tak boleh tahan dengan kawan kita ni, tak eloklah kalau kutuk belakang je all the time. anda pun tahu, nothing good can come out from talking behind people's backs. dosa dapat, membe tu pulak kesiannya kalau dapat tau. sebaiknya, pegila jumpa membe depan-depan, dan ini penting: cakap elok-elok. terus-terang cakap, sebenarnya kalau kau cakap baik manapun, kompem dia akan hurt jugak. tapi Nabi pun kata "berkatalah benar walaupun pahit" kan? so bahasa guna elok-elok. tone tu rendah-rendahkan. jangan cakap something yg boleh degrade dia. dan yg paling penting, JANGAN TEAM UP DENGAN ORANG LAIN. aku pernah kena ni, memang rasa malu sangat2. feeling ini adalah feeling paling fucked up dlm dunia, bila kau sedar member2 kau tak suka kau.

lagi satu, janganlah melebih-lebih tegur org. kau nampak salah dia dua, tiga je. tapi dek excited sangat mengeji dia, terus boleh buat satu list. sedangkan most of the things yg kau cakap tu bukan satu kesalahan pun kat mata org lain. jgn rasa diri kita superior sangat. yg lagi bagus, buat sesi saling menegur - dia pun boleh tegur salah kau pada masa yg sama, bolehlah sama2 baiki diri. lagi satu, bagilah dia can nak defend diri. mcm aku kata, jgn rasa diri kita ni superior bila kita yg tegur dia. boleh jadi dia pun nampak salah kita, tapi takde la sekejam mana sampai nak cakap depan-depan.

point ketiga; lepas dah tegur member elok-elok, bagilah masa untuk dia berubah. janganlah tegur semalam, hari ni marah2 sbb dia still buat benda yg sama. bila benda tu dah jadi habit, memanglah susah nak ubah. also, jangan think negative sangat. sometimes kita terlalu tak suka org tu sampai apa yg dia buat pun kita rasa menyampah, kita boleh buat isu. jgnlah judgmental sangat.

aku pernah kena benda ni. adalah dlm 2, 3 kali. tapi satu je aku nak mereka tahu. aku bukan jenis confront org. kalau aku nampak salah org, memanglah aku akan kutuk tapi aku takkan jelas-jelas jumpa org tu cakap sebijik-sebijik apa salah dia. people make mistakes, dan aku tau kalau aku confront mereka2 ni memang kompem dorg nangis gila-gila. sedangkan aku pun boleh menangis hampir setengah semester. selain itu, aku tak suka berkira dgn kengkawan. kalau member pinjam barang banyak kali sampai lupa pulangkan balik, memang aku senyap je sbb aku tau kalau aku cakap mesti dia terasa and segan gila. aku pernah rasa mcm tu dan aku taknak org lain rasa benda yg sama.

so yg penting dalam berkawan, kenalah ada tolak-ansur. kalau nak tegur, tegurlah selembut mungkin sbb kalau kau ada kat tempat dia, belum tentu kau akan terima teguran tu dgn tenang. lagi satu, kalau dah nampak salah org tu, dah tegur, tak payahlah nak fefeeling terus tak suka dia lama-lama. tak pernah dengar ke org cakap "to forgive is divine"? last advice: just because people never state your mistakes out loud, it does not make you faultless at all.

minta maaf.

terima kasih.

siapa kata jejaka botak tidak kacak?

well, selama ini gadis-gadis sentiasa mendambakan lelaki yang berambut cantik, sama ada yang berambut lurus mahupun ikal. lebih-lebih lagi jejaka yang berambut afro, memang gadis-gadis akan mengelilingi anda macam anda satu-satunya lelaki dalam dunia. 

habis tu? kesianlah dekat lelaki-lelaki yang kurang berambut ni. bukannya mereka ni tak kacak, tapi spotlight dah kena curi dek jejaka afro je. jadi, hari ini aku nak mempersembahkan beberapa jejaka-jejaka kacak yang tak berapa nak ada rambut dan bakal mengubah mindset anda, para gadis. 

1. Vin Diesel

siapa kat sini yang tak kenal mamat ni? kau memang loser. dipersilakan menonton siri Fast and Furious, Triple X ataupun The Chronicles of Riddick . hot hot hot hot hot~!

2. Chris Brown

cuba anda bayangkan seorang lelaki botak yang hanya memakai shorts bersama peach-coloured blazer tanpa apa-apa baju lain di dalam, dan masih hot. Chris Brown lah orangnya. 

and dance moves? superb.

3. Justin Timberlake

bagi gadis-gadis, jejaka ini sexy dari semua aspek . voice, check . body, check . bald, you betcha! kepada sesiapa yang tak minat beliau, sila dengar album FutureSex/LoveSounds. niceeee.

4. Wentworth Miller

first time nampak mamat ni dalam video clip Mariah Carey "We Belong Together". time tu dah memaki-maki kak Mariah sebab jeles terlampau. later, found out yang jejaka ini hero Prison Break . go go Scofield!

5. Jude Law

kau org tengok tak Artificial Intelligence, bila dia jadi prostitute robot? aku akan jadi pelanggan tetap dia.

dan aku tak kisah kalau dia bukan betul-betul botak . dia HOT. habis cerita.

dan yang keenam, bonus untuk anda semua:

6. Norman Hakim!

*bunyi cengkerik*

kesimpulannya, buat para jejaka di luar sana yang masih single dan mendambakan kasih-sayang para gadis, cepat-cepatlah shave rambut! mungkin peluang mendapat awek lebih cerah jika anda pergi gym bina badan.

gudluck!

hidup sebelum dan selepas Facebook

kebelakangan ini, facebook mula menjadi satu trend ikutan ramai. siapa yg ada ramai friends di facebook akan dianggap cool manakala yg tak ada facebook akan dianggap hina-dina. sebelum kita lupa yg kita ni ada life, jom kita imbas kembali ada beza tak hidup kita sebelum dan selepas kewujudan laman ini.

1. cara berkomunikasi. 

biasalah, perempuan kan memang banyak gosip. jadi, tiap kali aku balik rumah dan nak bergosip-gosipan, aku akan call member2 aku tengah2 malam pakai telepon rumah. kenapa tengah malam? satu, sebab bapak aku dah tido. dua, sebab bil telefon murah sikit kalau guna tengah2 malam. and bila aku call membe aku sorang ni, memang tak sah kalau tak lebih setengah jam. haha. selain tu, semua org dilanda musim ber-sms. macam aku. sms boyfriend, sms crushes, sms abg2 senior, sms pakcik polis dan lain-lain. haha.

sekarang? nak gosip2, semua pakai Facebook group chat je. takde feel langsung. -__-"

2. cara mengorat.

haaa. kau jangan ingat perempuan tak reti mengorat. dulu, jumpa laki kacak-kacak sikit, mulalah start borak, mintak no. fon. tu member2 aku lah, bukan aku. haha. kes aku pulak, ada member kasi nombor jejaka. terus aku kacau2, ngorat2, tup-tup couple. muahahah. lepastu, nak bagi gambar pulak. perghhhh memang nervous tak ingat masa ni. exchange gambar dengan boipren. skang dah clash baru terpikir, apalah si syaiton tu dah buat dgn gambar aku agaknya? -__-"'

kalau abg2 senior pun senang jugak. bukak majalah sekolah, page belakang2 ada contact info dorang. terus amik, call kat public phone hostel. haha.

sekarang? stalking made easy, search nama mangkuk yg kau nak ngorat, dah boleh terus usha gambar dia FOC. siap boleh terus right click-Save As. hahahaha okay, aku tak buat macam tu. *mata pandang ke lain* 

-__-"

3. birthday wishes.

dulu, semua birthday kawan2 aku akan dipandang sebagai satu event yg saaaangat besar. kitorang takde buat troll macam budak2 laki, baling telur dgn tepung tu. tapi malam birthday dia tu, kitorang semua akan buat2 lupa birthday dia sambil aku menyiapkan seketul kad utk di-sain oleh semua member2 batch aku yg sempat aku jumpa. aku pun dah tak ingat berapa banyak dah kad yg aku buat, dan cemana romannya. gambar pun takde, almaklumlah dulu-dulu budak sekolah. kamera takde, nak bawak handphone pegi hostel pun tak boleh. huhu.

kalau nak wish boipren ka, abg2 senior ka, pakai public phone je. nyanyi ramai-ramai kat situ. lepastu kena sound dgn akak-akak senior sbb contact lelaki. haha.

birthday cards.

sekarang? nak wish birthday, wish dekat Facebook wall je. nak sms pun dah malas. yg lagi sadis, kat Facebook page kita siap ada reminder birthday org tu lagi. bapak rasa tak special. org wish birthday kau semata-mata sbb notification tu. kalau tak, takdenye dia nak wish.

4. raya wishes.

situasi ni lebih kurang sama dgn birthday wishes tadi, except that kitorang akan beli kad raya berbondong-bondong untuk bagi kat semua member. bocor jugak la poket aku time tu. tapi raya rasa sangat special sbb dpt kad raya bersepah-sepah tu. although raya selalu start time cuti panjang, aku akan poskan kad-kad tu kat member2. baik kan aku. hahah.

kad raya dari kekasih lama beserta dua CD penuh dgn lagu metal. T___T

sekarang? pun sama, wish kat Facebook wall je. dah malas sangat, tulis kat status "selamat hari raya aidilfitri kepada semua". lagi malas, copy paste je status tersebut. cettt   -__-"'

5. computer games.

zaman aku adalah zaman famous-nya PS1, PS2, PS3, PSP, Gameboy, mahupun computer games biasa. dulu-dulu (cewah macam dah tua gila), game favourite aku diwaktu petang adalah game Pokemon, Metal Slug, Sonic, Bubble Bobble dan macam-macam lagi. Pokemon tu paling cool. waktu semangat dulu, 3 hari dah boleh habis satu jenis game.

sekarang? semua layan game Facebook je. Mafia Wars, Ninja Saga, Pet Society, Fishville, Cafe World, Restaurant City, dan beribu-riban game lain yg ada. dulu aku layanlah jugak, tapi sekarang dah boring. lepastu penuhlah Facebook notifications pasal invitation main game macam-macam. semak  -__-"'

6. zaman ada life.

dulu, waktu petang aku akan diisi dengan membaca. ya, walaupun bukan buku ilmiah, tapi aku still ada effort nak membaca. Ujang, komik Doraemon, buku Stephen King, Harry Potter semua bersepah-sepah atas katil. tu yg selalu tertidur petang tu. fefeeling tidur dikelilingi buku. haha. takpun, aku akan melukis. atau makan. atau tengok tb. atau pusing-pusing rumah mengacau mama tidur. atau bergayut/ber-sms dengan member2.

sekarang? bangun tidur, Facebook. lepas makan, Facebook. sebelum tidur, Facebook.

7. zaman Friendster dengan MySpace.

haaa yg ini paling tak menahan. zaman "thanx add!" dan "jgn lupew tomen gamba titew aw, tamow combunk2 ek!" yg sangatlah WTF. at least Friendster ok lah lagi, dia lebih kurang mcm Facebook, cuma lebih mundur. MySpace ni, adoiiii~ aku rasa time ni lah dapat random requests yg paling banyak. aku dah test dah, cuba letak muka bajet comel sikit, mulut muncung2, mata bulat2. terus mencanak naik friend request. bahahahah.

sekarang? dah malas berkenalan, letak muka kat Facebook pun muka yg paling lahabau.

hahahaha. rindunya zaman ada life. :D

the sweetest things

1. when someone i had a crush on for three years called me almost every night just to listen to me rambling.

2. when papa forgot my birthday and he suddenly remembered so he brought me to pasar malam and bought me fried chicken.

3. when i had a big fight with someone and suddenly he pulled my hand and led me into my favourite bakery and bought me my favourite blueberry cheese tarts.

4. when i was pissed off with someone because he forgot my birthday and the next day he visited me at school with a box of cappuccino birthday cake.

5. when i requested a patrick plushie from my favourite bro and he sent it in a big box together with a big bar of toblerone.

6. when he knew i was crying and he came running in the rain.

7. when he said that he would blindfold me and bring me to a secret place and i could choose whatever i want there. just the thought of it made me feel so happy.

8. when someone i had came to like so much said he felt the same way about me.

9. when it was my birthday and everybody pretended like they forgot and suddenly i was bombarded with birthday cards and hundreds of birthday wishes.

i do not have many sweet moments in my life. however, these little things i have, i'll make sure i won't forget them. :')

good friends vs best friends

you are broke

good friend: laa kesiannya~

best friend: aku pun ada RM3 je ni. jom kita beli nasi lemak jati, share dua org.

you overslept

good friend: kesiannya. mcm penat sgt je dia ni. taknak la kejut.

best friend: weh gila! kau tu dahla dah 3x skip kelas! bangun!!

you slept in class

good friend: bangunlah, nanti tak dpt ilmu.

best friend: kau nak tidur pegila belakang aku. aku cover.

you got low grades

good friend: takpe2, boleh cuba lagi...

best friend: aku pun sama. jom, study group. sape markah lg rendah kena belanja!

you are stressed with studies

good friend: takpe2, kita semua rasa mcm tu. cheer up!

best friend: jom ponteng. aku boleh bawak kau balik kampung aku, mandi sungai. :D

you're teased by some guys

good friend: eee jahatnya dorg tu. jom2 kita pi tempat lain.

best friend: *shows middle finger at them*

your lover cheats on you

good friend: omg jahatnya lelaki tu!

best friend: *calls your lover* weh hang tau tak muka hang mcm ****? *makian bersambung*

you broke up with your lover

good friend: awhh siannya. sabar byk2 ea..

best friend: *writes your phone number in men's toilet*

you can't get over your lover

good friend: takpe2. kumbang bukan seekor...

best friend: kau pegi pakai cantik2 skang, kita pegi pavi, ngorat laki. cepat2!

you are crying

good friend: meh sini meh aku peluk~

best friend: kau siap skang, kita keluar karok!

you're having a sleepover

good friend: meh aku buatkan air. nak ape2 lg tak?

best friend: gula dgn kordial dlm kabinet. pepandai la kau.

you found someone new

good friend: wow tahniah! at least takdela kau sedih2 dah~

best friend: cuba kau korek idung dpn dia. kalau dia still suka kau, he's the one.

you and him become lovers

good friend: 

i'm so happy for you!

best friend: 

*writes on his facebook wall* weh kau jaga membe aku ni lelok. kau patut rasa bangga dpt membe aku. punyalah ramai laki duk kacau dia. *kes tulis no. fon kat toilet laki*

reunion

good friend: hai lama tak jumpa! *hugs*

best friend: weh cepatla cerita pasal... (gossip)

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:)

if it's love, i'll pray for you. always.

she missed him. a lot.

so she texted him. "can we meet?"

so they decided to meet at school.

she walked around to class,

unaware of other people watching her.

all she ever thought was how fast her heart was beating.

it's like the first time you're about to meet your loved one.

except that they weren't together.

as she walked, she saw him.

their eyes met, but she quickly looked away.

i can't, she thought.

i can't let him see how weak i'll be whenever i'm near him.

i can't let him see how my eyes shine whenever i saw him.

i can't let him know what i truly felt for him...

though she never knew why.

so she pretended not to see him.

he was waiting at the stairs, with his friend.

she walked off, went into class, as normal.

she had fun, forgetting her phone.

she bought food, only that she didn't feel like eating.

all around she offered the food, but none would take it.

hours later, she checked it, saw two messages.

"wei mangkuk, cakap nak jumpa!"

"aku pegi dewan tau."

she smiled. how valuable those messages were!

she ran to the school hall.

she saw him waiting for her at the door.

they sat together, shared the food she bought.

and both were in their school uniforms.

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toilet.

aku tau mesti ramai orang pernah rasa ada toilet seketul je dalam satu rumah. kat rumah sewa aku pun sama. sekarang aku nak bagitau apa disadvantages ada satu je toilet utk 5 6 org ni.

1) bila kau nak buang hajat.

katakanlah kau bangun2 tidur dan perut kau memulas. time ni dalam kepala hotak mesti terpikir benda2 cair je. muahahah. dgn tak menahannya kau lari ke toilet dan tengok... ada orang. oh mesti menyumpah kan. kompem mundar-mandir kat ruang tamu, kelam-kabut tutup kipas. (aku kalau nak tahan ber, aku takleh rasa sejuk. hahah!) 

aku selalu mengalami benda ni kat rumah lama. kalau aku bangun pagi aku memang sentiasa nak kencing. sekali dgr bunyi kebush kebush dlm toilet. org mandi la tu. lagi sadis kalau dia siap basuh2 baju pakai tangan. punya menahan aku kat luar. kadang2 kalau dah tak tahan sangat aku jerit je kat luar. tapi most of the time aku akan duduk terkepit-kepit je sbb rasa kurang hajar pulak nak jerit dekat org. sometimes pulak aku akan berlari ke bilik air bawah, habis cerita. nasib baik takde kes sama kat toilet bawah jugak, kalau tak mmg boleh gila aku hari2 tahan kencing.

2) bila kau nak amik air semayang.

peak hours kat rumah aku ni ada dua: waktu subuh dan waktu maghrib. time2 lain, housemates aku takde kat rumah. kau dah bangun pukul 6.55 pagi, dah kelam-kabut nak semayang subuh takut terlepas waktu. sekali org2 rumah kau berderet2 nak mandi cuz dorg kena pergi kerja/kelas. melepek la kau duduk atas katil. kalau lama sangat tunggu, silap2 boleh tidur balik terus tak semayang. 

semayang maghrib pun macam tu! semua berderet nak mandi sbb baru balik kerja/kelas, kalau kau berlengah nak amik air semayang mmg pukul 8 setengah la baru toilet tu free. dulu kat rumah lama pun sama jugak, semua stok pukul 8 suku baru nak semayang maghrib. kebetulan masa tu masuk waktu awal. baru angkat takbir dah dengar azan isyak. terus sentap duduk atas katil pakai telekung sorang-sorang.

3) bila kau bangun lambat.

perkara ini selaluuuuu sangat terjadi kat aku. bayangkanlah kalau kelas pukul 10 setengah dan aku bangun pukul 9.45. aku berlari-lari anak ke bilik air dan, ada orang. tunggu punya tunggu, golek2 atas katil, pukul 9.55 (kalau nasib baik) org tu keluar. mandi-manda, siap, tunggu bas, pukul 10.45 baru sampai fakulti. kena bebel sebab lambat.

kat rumah baru lagi sadis sbb ada satu toilet je. mari kita ambil contoh hari ni. aku ada kelas pukul 9, pagi sabtu. bangun pukul 8.40. theoretically, aku sempat mandi-manda dan pergi kelas. keluar2 bilik, tengok ada sorang akak tgk tunggu turn nak mandi. penatlah aku berpikir cemana nak potong line akak ni, akak dlm bilik air tu dahlah mandi agak tak sekejap. lepastu aku dptlah bilik air dlm pukul 9.55. dan2 la nak terberry sbb strawberry milkshake mcD semalam. alang-alang ponteng la kelas -___-"'

dah habis mandi aku tengok akak yg mandi awal tadi tgh termenung dlm bilik. damn! kalau takde pape takyahlah mandi awal, terus rugi attendance aku! T___T
on second thought, i think i was just searching for an excuse to skip class. :D

negativity #2

i'm still depressed cuz of many things. drama, broke ass, lecturer, assignments, tests, everything in shah alam depress me. if i go home this week, will i be able to recover myself back?

i am very hostile right now. i think negatively at everyone. not that i think all people are bad, i just think that they are too busy to hear me. yeah, i'm seeking for attention right now.

the only way for me to escape from this negativity is by eating. nowadays, i eat three times a day. and three times, to me, is effin' much for a girl. lemme just tell you bout my diet yesterday. lunch, laksa at cafe. dinner, fried rice at candles. supper, two freakin' pieces of roti telur bawang at barra. monstrosity, i know. but i am just too d*mn frustrated with everything right now. only eating can keep me sane, though i occasionally shed a tear or two when i ate supper yesterday. T___T

and luckily, i have these sweetest friends who always eat together with me. cuna, marhanis, and jannah. especially marhanis, the goddess of eatery. hihi. just kidding, babe.

i actually kinda hate myself. our drama coach always told me to "be more childish! more!" so much that i stop liking drama class. i have very low-confidence right now, thanks to that. not that i am highly confident before. and oh, arabic test. why was i so stupid as to skip the class? i guess my excuse of "i ate two pills for my flu and i cannot even get up from bed" is unacceptable. not that people would believe it. and i haven't even start at how shitty i perform for this semester. C+ from Kieran, tons of nagging from Elia and Syahreena, what else? i don't even know how i got DLs those past three semesters. T___T

what i really hate, actually, is how some people are very insensitive to others. i don't care if people wanna state my weaknesses, i know they want me to improve. but to directly state it in front of other people, and only at me, is f*ckin' embarrassing, man. don't you think i worked my ass off hard enough to perform to you? show some gratitude, man! T___T

*dah lega sikit. thank you, blog.

entri minta maaf

i think i've hurt many people now.

i feel so guilty. :'(

this could only be my head, but still,

i am sorry.

for any wrongful acts i'd done

or wrongful words i uttered.

i'll be better. yes.

thank you people for always there for me. :')