Thursday, December 30, 2010

chaotic class | Part 1

the godd*mned noisy class automatically fell silent when he stepped in. it was as if the human population in the class of 2-D had totally gone extinct. but no, they still exist. just gaping and gawking at the guy.

how shall i describe the guy? he is tall, fair-colored. his face wore the expression of 'i don't give an effin' d*mn about cha, so you better get outta my way, low-life creature'. okay, i'm exaggerating there. but still, he kinda looked at you with only one eye, if you know what i mean.

his clothing. or should i call it, costume? the shiny top-hat. the white gloves. the red coat. maybe Mr. Stephen has called a magician to straighten us all up, cuz we are all mad in here.

"Hey. I'm your new Social teacher this year. Name's Chaos. Nice to meet cha." still, the i-don't-give-a-d*mn expression, with matching tone of voice.

"What f*cking kind of name is Chaos?!" Gerard suddenly shouted at the back. oh, I always hated him. his red hair, his unbuttoned uniform, purposely revealing the 'Kiss' T-shirt he wore inside. childish. not to mention, stupid jerk.

"You better go back to your circus, freakin' a*shole." he continued, followed with small laughs from his two friends, or better known as subordinates.

the next thing, six pigeons came out of nowhere and one by one, they pecked Gerard on his nose, like his nose was a sweet doughnut or something. his swearing and screams were definitely ignored by the new teacher, who slowly continued his interrupted self-introduction.

"First lesson, if you don't want to be treated like a d*ck, never interrupt."

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

tak best.

kenapa perempuan tu, ramai sgt laki suka kat dia eventhough perangai dia ****? mmg lelaki akan suka perempuan cantik je ke? and hari tu, aku tengok ramai laki duk puji dia segala kat facebook padahal bila aku tengok dia, aku rasa mcm tak cantik. ish, aku rabun kot?

aku tak jealous. sumpah. tapi benda ni selalu buat aku down. kekadang aku rasa aku jahat gila dgn perempuan tu. yalah, having such bad thoughts about her.

perempuan tu kawan aku. tapi entah, i have such a dislike on her.

*help me?

Monday, December 20, 2010

makcu saya baik orgnya.

petang kelmarin, makcu pergi meninggalkan kami.

kalau nak kata terkejut, semua org terkejut.
sgt tak sangka dia pergi tiba-tiba.
tapi in the end, semua org redha.

pemergiannya dipenuhi tangisan.
saya pun menangis, tapi saya tabahkan hati.
saya tak mahu seksa makcu dgn air mata saya.

rasa sayu sgt tengok makcu dikambus.
rasa sedih tengok anak makcu 5 org, plg kecil baru 5 tahun.
rasa sedih tengok mak lang, makbung, even papa menangis.

tapi,
makcu pergi dgn husnul khatimah.
makcu meninggal dlm telekung, masa tunggu waktu maghrib.
mayat makcu senyum.
ramai manusia dtg masa pengebumian makcu.
ramai bercerita psl makcu, tp semua yg baik2 je.
itu dah cukup buat saya happy dan redha.

all of us are going to miss her. :')


Al-Fatihah.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

mindset

"kubur lain-lain."

aku just nak cakap, tolong jgn guna ayat ni depan aku.
ini menunjukkan betapa defensive-nya kau.
kenapa still nak buat benda yg kau dah tahu salah?

and by the way.
memanglah kubur kita lain-lain.
tapi boleh ke bila kau mati, kau korek lubang kubur sendiri?
boleh ke kau mandikan mayat kau sendiri?
ingat sikit, kat dunia ni kita akan sentiasa perlukan pertolongan org lain.
even nasihat pun.
sbb tu bila org nasihat, kau jgn bagi ayat tu.

~peace~

Sunday, December 12, 2010

sampai hati kamu.

i intend to write something else tonight, but those three words keep appearing again and again in front of my eyes, hence the title. :'(

esok saya ada driving test. lagi. sgt nervous. oh please please please God, let me pass this time! i don't wanna waste anymore money my parents had gained. RM120 for every time re-test, whatta! :'O

everything around is a downer, lately. why, when i had helped you so much, you still think i'm not worthy enough to be mentioned as one of your close ones? ironically, i do feel the same way about you.


*please pray for me, everyone! *teary-eyed**

Friday, December 10, 2010

10th of December

hari ni tangan melecet pusing stereng. aku pusing track tu dr 7.15 am sampai 9.15 am. rasanya lebih 10 kali kot. -____-"'

pagi tadi bangun lambat - pukul 6.40 am. ni sume gara2 tetiba saiko takut duk bilik sengsorang. mulalah jenjalan keliling rumah tengok org tidur and bukak je lampu bilik. last2 tidur pukul 5 suku. ahha. pepagi ungku kesayangan dah call bagitau result -

and i got 3.54. ya, saya bersyukur sbb sem ni banyak sgt buat benda lagha dan sgt kurang belajar. sedikit not satisfied sbb mama suruh target 3.8++, but then, mama say congrats jugak tadi and suruh strive lg sem dpn. :)

then came the one-in-a-million question: "kau nak apa?"

wee melompat2 aku. eventhough tak sure mama akan bagi ke tak, aku cakap either a camera or a guitar. tp kalau tak dpt, it's okay mom! :)

tahniah anda2 yg lain sbb results ok! yg results kurang ok tu takpe, kita cuba lagi next sem ok? dan lagi dan lagi sampai kita graduate :)

malam ni ada pasar malam, yeay! perut aku berbunyi2 riang sbb tak makan dr pagi. kes malas masak. :D



*lama jugak tak update, sbb duduk rumah kak niza hari2 baca komik. sugoiii! :D