right and wrong

is it wrong if i speak up?

if i do, i might hurt people.

if i don't, people say i'm a coward.

is it wrong if i apologize?

if i do, i might be humiliated.

if i don't, then i am heartless.

is it wrong if i care?

if i do, people step on my head.

if i don't, people say i'm cruel.

is it wrong if i am sad?

if i do, people say i'm weak.

if i don't, you still think something's wrong with me.

is it wrong if i crush my own ego?

if i do, people say i'm foolish.

if i don't, people say i'm stuck up.

i used to think i'm a risk taker. spontaneous. 

now, i doubt i'll take risks anymore.

say something hurtful to me, i doubt i'll snap back at you.

be angry with me, and i'll be the one worrying the most about you.

i used to think i don't care if i'm hurt,

as long as my friends are smiling.

perhaps,

it's just me conforming to society.